my family. my home. my responsibility.

it all seems so weird. in the past, others were my mother. now, i'm other people's mother. well of cos, not naturally their mother.

i feel so bad not being able to support them all the way at the competition. all i am able to do is cross my fingers and pray hard. it's not that i don't have any confidence in them winning, cos whether they get the title back doesn't matter to me, but i know deep in the bottom of my heart how hard they tried, and they have far exceeded my expectations and even if they dun succeed, i will personally award them myself even if i'm broke =)

all of a sudden i feel so protective over each and everyone of them. whether they are close to me or not. i feel the need to make sure they are well rested, in good health, taken proper meals and all. most importantly, i feel the need to protect their emotional needs. ARC has in a way destroyed or worsen certain members emotional needs. and the people around them aren't helping. and some people just refuse to be helped.

i finally understand how met feels about arc being a family. i never really understood the part whereby as family we should forgive one another for our shortcomings cos i know as human beings, we can't. but i realised that if we really love the family, it's harder to lay down their short comings and when we see a weakness, our heart immediately goes out to want to help, thus becoming one. one body.

when i hear about such things, it's sad. knwoing that there are such conflicts. the worse part is, i dun even know about it. i know they keep it from me because they don';t want to worry me and all. but HEY. i am part of the family. the one in charge of you guys too. so pllllsss... stop hiding more stuff. i know u guys have been hiding alot of stuff, but i do observe and here about what is going on. come on people.

if you truly are passionate about this cca, this family. then carry out actions that prove it. don't be a hypocrite and put on a front.

DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. LORD...HELP ME!

glory showed her greymatter at 10:44 p.m. on 2005-03-16.

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